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i wanted to write little thing here abt fnaf movie, since i watched it but :( took too long for me to actually nake a blog entry.
In short, I watched a fnaf film that was very good, considering the fact that it was in production for 8 years!! wow. I'll spoil it now... ok
In general, I liked all of it, alot, and there weren’t even any strange out of place moments in the film that I openly didn’t like, or I just don’t remember anymore haha. Btw I watched it very legally on a very legal website, difficult times require extreme measures okay.... if somehow they show it in our theaters I WILL have to go, it’s my duty as an Old fan :3 but also bc i want to. I’ll write down the moments that I remember most and which I’m too lazy to write out
that fucking rainbow; the dream theory!! reference to a theory in which all the fnaf events take place in the head of a crying boy(i think); God, so many references; Vanessa became William Aftons daughter; the Afton siblings are Schmidtz now?? maybe in-universe Emilys?; all the animatronics, even their endoskeletons are biblically accurate; where is Henry?? Will is who? is he the creator of the pizzeria itself? the only founder?; how the animatronics with Vanessa, Michael and Abby built a fort; from where Golden came from??; one of the ppl who broke into the pizzeria was named Carl; the animatronic which they wanted to stuff Abby into is from a Fazbear frights story, n tha books ig; SPARKYY!!!!!!!!!; sparky has a diner named after him? GAME THEORY?; What the hell was that screamer with foxy, my boy wghat. thats all i thinkkk.
fnaf movie william afton is kinda hot.....
god im tired. so much things happen and overlap on previous things that i forget abt previous ones entirely and 😵💫 god fucking fuck im so tired. i am constatnly tired i dont do shit .a single one. if i do, i feel so overwhelmd i start to cry like damn boy, why. i came to school the last friday and started to feel so shit i cried so much i needed to go home, bc i felt like shit, but also i didnt want to get back to class i dont think i couldve actually consentrate on a single thing either way . when i got home i took a nap and felt, better ig.
sorry. i dont have anything to write about n most of the time i dont feel like it. i do consume new stuff, but to talk anything about that? i have no idea how. i forget shit 😮💨 i got (totally legally) dream daddy the other day and played the only one route- g- guess which one- 😀 and i fuck it up so many times not knowing what i did wrong till i looked it up, then mostly did it by guide , i didnt had patience to play it another 4 times over sorry☹️ someday maybe i get to play other routes, maybe to try to do them myself, idk... watched, finally, emesis blue yesterday!!!! good shit! dont ask why it took that long. maybe i should do another gmod map, when i get the time, after the exam in the end of the year, meow.
i dont rmbr if i talked about me getting new keyboard n mouse, like a set. It a gamer keyboard obv. i dont want for this(blog entry) to be organised or i have thhe energy to. i fucking want to do so much yet i feel overwhelmed when there is so much to do i cant ever start anything or finish, mostly start, and continue.
hav a period in life where i feel absolutely wasted with my future being like, right outside my house, like behind gates, staring me down, just being there, not going away. i know its there, it knows im there. and just the anxiety of knowing its so close to me already fucking kills me, not mentioning what will happen when it will get into my home. damn you crazy bitch get the fuck out my property.
should i tell how i think, for real, there are alternate-like fuckers irl giving me irl MAD, not joking, or. 😕 ok. i wont . it'll be too much Mark Heathcliffcore of me to😔 sorry
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wish i could someday tho :(
idk i wanted to write something here but nothing really happened much, or i dont remember already. They changed the wires on my braces, both of them 😭 it hurted like shit, it still hurts but less...... did i told u guys im w/ braces...ya.... i rmbr i posted about getting ones on my upper jaw, now i have on both :6. since like...uuhhhh summer, i think?
For the record i didnt got them just because my teeth werent straight enough, or in right place. That shit made my health worse so i needed them okkk, my fucking jaw popped off constantly like it wasnt gonna get in place, it did, but there was a risk and it hurtedd ouchyy.. i am a fucking defect bruh, like because i have different jaw(??) position or some shit, like a genetic thing, theres not enough room for my teeth to go so i had a second row of them on upper jaw, the fangs, lol. So they had to remove 4 of my teeth, not all of them at the same time but yeah, 4, and now they moved in place like they supposed to be, and ig i let myself smile more, i knew it didnt matter how my teeth looked or where they were, thats literally shoudnt be your priority unless theres health problems coming w it, bc that is expensive, why u need a "right" looking teeth if ya dont have anything to eat w those after!!! white and straight teeth ar overrated as shit, smh..
wowzers, mango hadnt talked about scrimblo magazine for a whole 5 minutes!!!!wooowwww....... i just actually hav nothing to talk about...uh. i do still have them sillies rotting my brains tho, both heathcliff siblings are trans and there is nothing that will change my mind, also cesar too, idk who he is on the spectrum, whatever he wishes to himself.. i just go w transfem and thats it. hhhhh im projecting shutttt uppppp ,,,, bleeehhh :p Trans kids stay together baby!!!!
im scared to check whatev is on tumblr rn, or was, or will be... i luv my tumblr mutuals i swear i just never mentally preparred what kind of autism beam ill get blasted by just going onto my dashboard. yuh. also i watched spider verse films just recently(yup) ohhh my god... ohhhhhhhh mygod.... i wont tell u a thing but! for once im not gaying all over! uh.. miguel... the fucking animalistic behaviour threw me off (in a good way), also thd fangs... um, //_// yuh, but in general im not into him!! thats good lol, im not actually into anyone from there, i like them a lot and their characters, but not in a way where ill go outta my way to smooch someone....good tbh..
i cant handle the amount of gay horny thoughts im having at this period in life, its like puberty n shit ig , ironycally while i write this my mind is empty as an....empty brain....aye.
..ppl above didnt let me be born with a dick bc they knew how much of a raw power i wouldve had and they simply, cant let that slide.
ill be, straiggt up yoinking that thang.
sorry i had to.
- bugi like how simultaneously cannot do something in silence and cannot focus nor hear my own thoughts enough when i watch/listen smth to do anything else, mainly writing which is. how it supposed to be?? i dunno actually. Maybe i can focus on one thing at the time? i dont know
Ofc blorbos never left my brain, they never will until i burn out of my hyperfixation, its unlikely..yeah i added adverts like things on home page, couldnt resist ok u cannot judge me :p
The amount of new thing mandelatech actually gave us, in a lore sense, the whole fucking murray-diary blew my dick off!!!!!/sillyjoke like, the guy doesnt do ok at all 0_0 i like, not that attached to him, even with the amount of things hes going through, and like, i still get fair share of autism beamed through me/in a good way i think. what adam non-casual enjoyers must go thru...i feel for ya mates/sincere
speaking from personal experience, not that early and not that long ago like say, be4 vol 4 came out (congrats btw) i think i got too attached to mark, and every time something i saw smth on my timeline with angst, with him, i got phsycic damage/in a bad way, not the amount of to phisicaly make me ill, but it was there. And, oh my god the 4th vol. oh my god, it shot me in both of my knees and run off, ohhhhh whatthefuck😋😋😋 i dont want to talk about why i got attached to him, in a sense like i relate to him too much, but uh😶 i still do , and if we get what alex said we may get(uhuh possible flashback to when mark and cesar were friends) then oooohhh, bruh, i will need a break from everything in my life for a few days. Like i get autism beamed from any new content we get, and also when we dont. i am thinking about, the only reason jonah got into bps is like, bc adam needed someone to investigate with, since sarah couldnt handle the shit adam showed her, and didnt want to herself. she works w them, but doesnt go investigate w them. Like the hatred Adam expressed on Jonah, since he was always an alternate (being snached as an infant and replaced doesnt count) he is struggling with emotions just in general. And u know, sometimes it feels easier to push away / hate someone that that gives a shit or 2 about you rather than care about them in return.
maybe that didnt make sense, whatev.
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......you cannot possibly make me relate to multiple different characters at once. you joking ii already relate to jonah too, soomehow??? but not that a lot ok let me live/j i drew them sillies in hc look, somewhat, ya can look into the gallery for that.(jonah has hatsune miku pin, im right and u know it :3)
oh um wanna mention that ppl remebered that six exists!!/not in a mean tone. like hell yeah that bitch always been there but now he has more plot relevance, and while not directly, he still is. Sorry for a tangent i think i got too tired of seeing only fanart like a ton of gabriel, and thats fine (not when yall draw him, hot??? wh),human charc get it ok, and scarce fan content on six. this isnt directed towards anyone like hes my fav i legally obligated to say smth (and besides when was the last time you saw fan content on Ruth? yeah. so its not that bad for him i cant complain)(in mid sentence remembered something, yall, Ruth was supposed to have a daughter? i dont know if i have a screenshot but ruth VA said that..or along those lines. they didnt have anything going w that plot point? did they forgot about it?? who knows.....(YES i have itt :))
oh ok then thats answers my questions, damn she HAD a daughter....
also school is soon and like in this grade we get big finals and shit but who gives a fuck (let me enjoy peace while it still didnt hit me)(please)
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i fucking hate when i want to do something thats related to mandela(you dont know it but there is a lot of them, almost never start any of them) like draw smth and then new content releases and now i dont want to do shit at all. im in a fucking despair, atm its my hyperfixation and like, i should get some kind of aspiration 2 do fan content from the new stuff but yet its the opposite, somehow. They make me feel a lot of despair, a lot, maybe i should find new media that is not that full of emotions i dont want to feel rn, or in a right mindset .uuuhm... or maybe finding something new will give m sum inspiration...dunno
meow anyways i need to draw something or ill be sad
upd: also i added the neko, it was later this day but uuhh i didnt added this in
- buguuughhhh😞 rlly wanted to write smth but now dont feel like it at all,, yeah the new vid was, something... sarah n eve were there so im already happy also, the yeah th new site?? (i just rmbr) it looks so fucking cool im glad they made it, know its like more for story purposes, but its cool just as it is even w/o any lore, just a cool thing ^_^ and whoever they found to make it, is more...pro(??) at coding , not to shame the mandelapolice its also cool k, its just i cant understand the code itself and how it works , most of it, i dunno if its overcomplicated on purpose so people wont snooop around much, but as a professional snooper myself, yeah, good job. ok jkjk good coding im silly.
Did anyone tried to contact the gmail on the site? or just a deco thing that doesnt need ppl to mail anything?? then theres sarahs gmail....huh
fucking. cant start to draw the bps comic but i want to soo much , jonah adam and sarah interacting 2gether ,,,,3gether??? im gonna let it lie in my drafts till th next vol comes out bc im always late to shit 0~0
meow meoww i feel like shittttt 🤯🤯🤯 i made sum new buttons and stamps btw...they pretty dope i think, i love the transsexual one the mostt :)
i prob gonna post more about my fictional blorbos than irl shit abt me, is it bad or sad
lol anyways having a lot of thoughts abt heathcliff siblings 🤯🤯 like literally i need more content with them ,well more with sarah, but them interacting !!! my god. im not so sure about this, but according to sarahs mail her birthyear is 1989, meaning that! at the moment of Marks passing! 1992 to be sure, she was 3 year old !!!!!!!what the fuck!!!! (what up with young adults getting traumatised/dying in this series😭😭) like, she didnt get to remember him much when she grew older, or at all.....and also thats prob the reason why her voicemail from og copies was scrapped, and also that pic w her and mark, yeah
I am kinda sad theres scarce fan contet w them interacting, there potential ok!! like am i have to do it all by myself,,,,,, sure. I want them interacting like siblings!!! and if you arent an only child you should know what im talking abt. Let kid sarah be annoying to Mark!! and the opposite way!! i am the youngest sibling so i should know... i wanna draw them, but it will be mostly au kinda thing , were maybe sarah was little older to marks passing, or just straight up au were mark lived (but died much later anyways😈/sorry) bc how the hell do u draw a child, i could try but uhhh
ALSO ALSO I NEED SARAH TO INTERACT W CESAR LIKE VERY, they shouldve interacted in canon logically, when sarah was 3, idk how but yah, like older siblings friend is younger siblings friend okay, bc i said so.You wont let me get started on if cesar is alive or not theory(??) bc i am so annoying abt it so ill wont, but if he is, then their interaction in the current year story is in rn would be , maybe very 😶 awkward . so thats why i need their interaction,,,
But you know what would be better ? all 3 of them interacting!!!!!! please (i think Alex somewhere said ,i think on some stream, that future vol. will be cesar and mark centered, but they may have changed the plans bc since then 2 volumes(im very not sure) were released and yeah, or! well gonna get it in the next one!(vol 5) but im not trying to say if we dont get it ill be disapointed bc literally since then the story couldve shifted entierly and we wouldnt know! setting unrealistic standarts than i made up myself and then be dissapointed with them not being fulfilled is kinda my thing, but i try to not do that , or at least to express it, and overtime rewatching whatever the thing is i love it more and more anyways :3
eerm i think thats all, love you
- bugYeah hii , the main reason why the theme is windows XP bc i looove how simple it is and NOT oversimplefied, fuck that :( also not a fan of overdetailed , windows uhhh how do ya call it , system?? sure. Windows xp was one of the first operating systems that our home pc could run so i have good memories w it :3 paint is my friend forever mircosoft you cant take away it fromm meee >:( (paint 3d doesnt even work for me, im on win 7 rn like??) i wouldve prob stayed w xp if the computer didnt broke and this one came w win 7 on auto ,soo sad. win 7 is not thaat bad, but xp is not bad tho..
it still looks kinda raw(the blog) i will add thing but for noow its just entries >0> ,maybe not.
The topic of the week!!!(not a reg thing i just stardet posting so thats whyy week) THE MARK PLUSHIE DROP???? 
OMMMMGGGGGGGGG !!!! THA THANGGG i wasnt expecting for any more plushies to drop?? espesially mark, since the alt cesar was before so idk, but ig bc it had more "demand" from fandom .th first plush they released was 6 bc ??? thang already looked like a marketable plushie material :3 hes the one i have , not the og one :( i couldve afford him, but due to reasons, i couldnt get hiim , methinks its for the better... i wonder if they gonna drop more char plushies..idkk
promo video is literally the video ever. alt ces vid promo was also something
also th
anyways i think im gonna write here sometimes abt anything so aayyy
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